It is this sick part of me that enjoys seeing other's demise. Like yesterday, it was sick to see Gordon Hayward's injury but a little voice inside me said, "he deserved it." I recognize that this feeling is evil but I can't help it. It is like every morning I wake up and look at the news to see if anything horrific happened. I don't look to see if I can help. I look to see the carnage. I've come to the conclusion that I'm just not a good person.