was my age but I was a fatty and she was already way over my league. Soon some of the older boys started to pay attention to her. The fact she was 14 and they were 18 didn’t seem matter.

For years I pined over her. I made a secret wall of adoration. I created a voodoo doll and tried to bind her to me. When that didn’t work I turned to Dungeon and Dragons with my closest friends and forget about her. At least I told myself I did.

Well years passed and I matured and grew. I got even more involved with role playing. Around 16 years old I became a master chieftain 6th class. She was still the same pretty girl but I still wasn’t getting attention from other girls.

I still pined for her and she still ignored me but then I started going to stake dances where it was rude to say no if I asked a girl to dance. I would say some even prettier girls had to say yes and started notice me when I started to walk up. These girls didn't know the younger, scrawny-er, more awkward me, and reacted with fight or flight with my new larger frame.

By the time I was a senior, I was the BMOC, and finally my longtime crush showed interest in me, after she suffered a tragic accident, but it was too late. I was more interested in anything but girls.

BYU Admin have the same problem as the original local belle of the ball. They don’t realize that they had suffered a tragedy and now they just want anyone to notice them. They haven't realized that the landscape has changed and that what used to be isn't.