How do you reconcile your efforts to support this work with
your assessment that it is evil? If you are taking a paycheck, you are duty bound to give your employer an honest day’s work to advance its cause in exchange. If you believe the company’s work is evil, you seem to have a moral duty to stop. Your OP seems to violate both your duty of loyalty to the employer and your inherent moral duty.
Not judging but, on its face, your post seems like a cry for help.