I'm not a frequent contributor to the board, but I keep up with it as much as I can. Anyhow, I'm going through the same thing right now, and I totally identify with you. I've had to bite my tongue a lot to keep from asking what I've done to deserve what I'm getting. What I've had to realize is I just need to be humble and do my best to improve myself as much as I can through this and learn whatever I was meant to learn from all this. I know what you mean, it's really easy to say all that stuff until you're in the middle of the biggest crisis of your life. Hopefully we can both pull if off. Anyhow, best of luck to you, and we'll just have to hope for the best for the both of us.