I can't add to all that's been said, but yeah, I come here because my Utes are ALWAYS a topic of conversation!  

Plus, my parents were also BYU grads and season ticket holders all through the 70's and 80's.  I went to many BYU home football games from 1972 to 1985.  Many of my family and friends graduated from BYU and many friends played for BYU. So I do have a bit of a connection.

I came back to cougarbored last season because my son has lifelong Ute Conference/highschool team mates who are now playing for BYU and I like to follow them.

To the OP; medical cannabis my help you control your rage?  Or therapy... or both.  I believe you can get free counseling at Family Services with a referral from your bishop. 🙂