isn't normal. It was taking its toll on me and my family, but I felt stuck.

I was able to move on and am in a much better job now. It isn't my dream job, but I don't hate every minute I work.

There are good jobs and you don't have to hate it, or yourself. You don't have to feel stuck. You and your family are worth trying something else. Start looking actively. Go through the Church's self reliance job course. You can get out of feeling stuck.