It bothers me to see anyone hurt or sad. When someone around me is frowny-faced, I feel like I need to try to fix it before I can relax.

Meanwhile, I tell jokes with no feeling behind them that some people (my wife, El Jefe, etc.) tell me are mean and hurtful. I'm my own worst enemy. When I hear that my silliness has made someone sad, it wrecks me.

Unfortunately, I love to make myself laugh and that always comes first.
I'm such a jerk.