for me.

I honestly left that game thinking "is BYU football done? Like...over."

It was the worst loss, at the worst time, there was no emotion on the sidelines, in the stands, among the players, or even the coaches. Kalani sounded like a zombie in the postgame presser.

For some reason it sticks in my mind as not just disappointing, but as a major existential crisis-type game for the program.