What would your earlier self think of you now? Do you hate the BYU fan you once were? Does your earlier self hate who you've become? The internal and mental anguish must be intense.

Your thoughts betray you yewthater. We can feel the good in you, the conflict. You say there is not conflict, but you couldn't bring yourself to destroy us before and I don't believe you'll destroy us now. We'll not leave you there Yewthater. We have to save you.