Have you ever, instead of having your breath taken away in a bad way, asked yourself the question, "Why would the 15 men that we consider to be prophets, seers and revelators, feel that the use of millions of dollars of tithing to support BYU is the best way to allocate those funds? What is so unique about that institution that they would come to this conclusion? Especially when many of them are graduates of other institutions, including the University of Utah?"

Seems like those would be the questions I would ask myself if I were in your shoes.