That is just your defense mechanism. First of all no one really feels good about being a yewt fan, it's mostly shame mixed with embarrassment. What most of you do is try to convince yourselves that being a yewt fan is actually a respectable thing to be and you do that by trying to troll BYU fans and get replies from them. That allows you to continue to deceive yourself into thinking that being a yewt fan is somehow a superior state of being when in fact yewt fans are not respected by anyone at all, but inthis age of 'safe zones' and feelings it fits right into the yewt fan self delusion and their feminine mindsets.
I actually feel a lot of pity for you, and those like you. It s sad that you made life choices that resulted in you becoming what you are but there are always consequences in life.