I have become extremely unsatisfied with my life but I am not depressed. I enjoy a lot of things but really only feel “normal” when I’m actively working.

I consider myself quite successful and most probably think I really have it together but I totally don’t. I’m borderline self destructive and it is hurting my relationship with my wife. I’m paranoid of losing her for little to no reason. I don’t sleep. Therapy isn’t helpful.

So I have good and bad days but this so not anything I’ve ever experienced before. It’s odd because never in my life have I had it so good.

I jace some awesome kids and they keep me in a safe place, it’s just a really odd scenario that I’ve never dealt with before