First off and most importantly thank you for being so honest. My Bishop sent me this link and I really appreciate you talking about the emotional side of it. There's an emotional addiction that comes from the rituals of getting high. I can't say I ever really had a drug of choice I just wanted to feel good all the time. But feeling good all the time means I'm neglecting other areas of maturity and if I'm always feeling good I never attend to those areas. Now that I'm clean people tell me that I'm real sensitive, but at first glance you wouldn't think that if you saw me. So I think I'll take you up on that offer about the life coach. Addiction covers a wide wide array of things. I don't want to substitute one bad behavior for another. I want to gain control of myself and every area. Thanks