akin to faith or testimony, given only to some, because in my decades of covenant-keeping, I really don't understand or feel that companionship. I don't know how to "lean on the Savior for strength." Is that tangible for people?

I've seen blessings that have helped us cope as a family, like finding a good psychiatrist or school where the bullying is diminished, so I know I must find more gratitude in those things that have mitigated the hopelessness.