Yes 10+ years of utter hell. Wanting to be dead every day to escape the pain.

May 30, 2023
1:43:15pm

AFewThoughts All-American

Tried a ton of medications, doctors, etc. Eventually found solutions and I am no longer on medications. Healing is possible. Feel free to BM me for more information/details.

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AFewThoughts

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Author

Time

Depression

SaintGeorgeYFan

5/30/23 1:06pm

Have you had suicidal ideations?

Iman23

5/30/23 1:07pm

Many here have experienced just that.

Archaea

5/30/23 1:07pm

yep. I see a therapist every week, am part of a group therapy over zoom, and

reagan21

5/30/23 1:08pm

What you are feeling is not uncommon.

Backcountry

5/30/23 1:08pm

I’ve been there with you my friend. It’s hard to see things getting better

WeekendWarrior

5/30/23 1:12pm

It's not uncommon and there are places to turn to that provide solid tangible

darkcoug

5/30/23 1:14pm

I feel your struggle man. I don't know why but I often feel life is..

greatbam

5/30/23 1:14pm

Yes, I get to ride this thought train about every 2 months or so

daJimmer

5/30/23 2:01pm

Yes. This may sound silly, but I found taking daily fish oil pill helps.

BYU Robert

5/30/23 1:17pm

Whatever you do, don’t decide on a permanent resolution that can’t be undone.

gwalker

5/30/23 1:19pm

There are solutions that alleviate pain

Archaea

5/30/23 1:25pm

Reminds me of one of my favorite quotes I recently came across...

wickedgame71

5/30/23 7:42pm

A very good line.

Archaea

5/30/23 7:45pm

whatever pain or emptiness I feel is dismal compared to

LeonMarek

5/30/23 1:25pm

From one tall guy to another, there's lots of folks willing to help — including

Six Foot Seven

5/30/23 1:27pm

I’ve come to realize

vegas guey

5/30/23 1:27pm

Good views, however I don't agree with the "nothing really helps ringing hollow"

BYUfan92

5/30/23 3:40pm

Please stay

RockyBalboa

5/30/23 1:32pm

You are not alone. I've definitely been down this path more than I would hope

Chefcurry

5/30/23 1:34pm

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sandstorm

5/30/23 1:34pm

Recently, I've had the epiphany that our primary purpose here on earth is to

J. Walter Weatherman

5/30/23 1:37pm

Most of us realize this hopeless hellscape is temporary

vegas guey

5/30/23 2:09pm

Are you saying what I think you're saying?

AFewThoughts

5/30/23 2:34pm

Yes, in general

vegas guey

5/30/23 4:07pm

I can testify that healing through Christ is possible, from personal experience

Socrates Johnson

5/30/23 5:53pm

I add my witness as well from one who gave up on EVERYTHING/HOPE.

AFewThoughts

5/30/23 6:02pm

Personally, I think in the NT when it talked about people being possessed it was

canofpicante

5/31/23 7:57am

That is a profound and beautiful quote. Thanks for sharing.

ldssdl

5/30/23 5:07pm

Get help, professional help. There’s a weird stigma with mental health. Especial

akmewg

5/30/23 1:43pm

Yes 10+ years of utter hell. Wanting to be dead every day to escape the pain.

AFewThoughts

5/30/23 1:43pm

No, but I love a lot of people that feel that way. And surely there are more

OldFogey

5/30/23 1:46pm

Yes. BM me because I have some things you should think about before this gets

Socrates Johnson

5/30/23 1:49pm

Yes, I’ve been there

KingDave

5/30/23 1:55pm

I've been there too. I posted about it a while back.

rebelCoug

5/30/23 2:20pm

Get help. Go you your bishop, a good friend, or a therapist. This can be treated

rockyrd

5/30/23 2:54pm

I waited way too long to get help

LO Cougar

5/30/23 3:03pm

Look in this thread and I hope you're glad you asked. MANY have indeed shared

BYUfan92

5/30/23 3:25pm

You're not alone my man.

waveslayer

5/30/23 3:57pm

I just had time to come back to this thread and

SaintGeorgeYFan

5/30/23 3:59pm

I appreciate the things you have shared

LadyInNavy

5/30/23 5:58pm

A couple additional things....

LadyInNavy

5/30/23 6:37pm

I just will say that if I knew you I wouldn't be someone wondering what's wrong

Mitty

5/30/23 6:30pm

You mentioned a daily cycle of sin and guilt...

J. Walter Weatherman

5/30/23 11:14pm

Couldn't agree more. It took me my entire life to learn the difference between

reagan21

5/31/23 10:33am

I’m in St George. Want to grab some lunch sometime?

CougarGeorge

5/30/23 4:06pm

Same for me. I like any excuse I can find to go to lunch. In fact, maybe

gwalker

5/30/23 5:47pm

If you need more people, I'm in too.

Christopsomo

5/30/23 6:30pm

If you’re ever in Utah county I’m up to meet up and talk.

LHA

5/30/23 7:11pm

Yes, I have. It sucked for a long time.

CougarMandias

5/30/23 5:55pm

RE: Depression

gwalker

5/30/23 6:35pm

Seriously, if you guys don’t tomorrow, then let’s all go Friday.

CougarGeorge

5/30/23 6:57pm

Oops. I meant that to be a boardmail.

gwalker

5/31/23 8:51am

I can only imagine. We’re with you. Keep talking.

canofpicante

5/31/23 7:45am

It sucks. I find it interesting that some of these posts talk about not existing

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