Does anyone else struggle with scouting? I'm in my 30's and have probably at least 10 years of scout callings under my belt. I've gone to trainings, camp outs, high adventures, and all day little Philmont events. I've gone up and down in my opinion of the program, and right now I'm at kind of a down.

My problems I'm trying to work through are these. 1. I don't enjoy the outdoors as much as a leader in this type of program should. I wasn't a scout as a kid, but years in the program as an adult has given me an appreciation for the outdoors. I'm grateful that now instead of completely avoiding camping I'm now probably good for 1 or 2 short trips a year competantly. I cannot do once a month without disliking it. I know the best programs involve the deacons going camping monthly, I've tried to make myself like it and I can't. No kid with a love for this stuff should be forced to have a leader like myself with very little passion for these skills and events. I feel like a failure in my calling because I feel this way, it's likely my fault but I just want to know if it's possible to be a good example and a good priesthood holder without having a zest for the outdoors.
2. Being involved in this program is getting harder and harder without a child in it. I'm not alone in this, but its just so hard to pack up and leave for all of Friday and Saturday once a month when my wife has a pack of small kids at home. This is made harder by the fact I do t particularly like the reason I'm going.i understand we are blessed for sacrifice but I'm having a hard time with this one.

Sorry to post, I just needed to vent. I'm glad I have had so many youth callings and some of my most fulfilling experiences have come thru being near the youth in classes, church based activities, and firesides. I just wish that i could keep this without involving scouts.

If you've come around on this let me know how. I understand most of you make greater sacrifices than I do all the time. I probably deserve criticizism for posting this, but if anyone is kind enough to offer help or tips I would appreciate it.