Thanks for all the great input. I should probably talk the the Bishopric.

What's holding me back is first that I don't want to feel like a failure. Second, I don't feel at this time it would get me very far. I have a great time teaching, in quorum meeting, non-scout youth night and at all the other church events with youth. Moreover I love all of those things. I don't feel the time burden excessive, even if some of them take a while. I just can't participate in what I enjoy most without also participating in scouting. I don't want to leave the boys, I just would rather leave scouts.

Also, I want to clear up that there is not an excessive camping burden on me personally. I live in an all Star ward with plenty of help from parents and leadership on monthly campouts. I do miss my share. I dont feel like the program or boys suffer for my lack of desire or ability. It's just hard to see other very enthusiastic and competent leaders running the program and asking myself "why am I here?" Or " I will never ever feel this way about the outdoors, or invest the time/money this person has it in. How can I do this?" Moreover I don't really have a desire to feel that way about the outdoors. Do I need to have that desire is a question I'm asking and seeking an answer to.

Those questions along with the desire to serve the youth without serving in scouting are what I'm struggling with.

Thank you all for the quick and kind replys. You are a credit to message boards everywhere.